The Lies We Tell Ourselves

By Natalie Bair

People who say they don’t lie, are liars. It goes far past the point of clicking the little check in correspondence to, “I have read and hereby agree to the terms and conditions” (when in actuality, not even the authors of that lengthy agreement can force themselves to read over their coma-inducing passage of mental hibernation). Rather, every individual, even the most seemingly honest, with two gleaming wings protruding from their backbones and a blinding halo following their oh-so-true head, lies. The most embarrassingly-common victim subjected to these fibs? Themselves. Today’s youth, in particular, bears the heavy burden of these lies.

AP students can relate when it comes to haphazardly sprawling out the contents of their history homework from their textbook onto the confines of college ruled pages, four hours of homework under their bulging mental belt, with the clock proudly grinning 4:00 a.m. across its merciless face. Completely vacant of coherent thoughts in regards to the zombifying task at hand, the only words that echo through their mind promise, “It’s fine. You won’t be tired tomorrow. You can do this.” Following this exhausting cycle of teenage misery? Infinite amounts of caffeine, a cruel deprivation of sleep and social activity, and a recurring commitment to get more sleep the next night, which, inevitably, like the wild idea that one can cope with an inhuman lack of sleep, comprises a blatant lie.

Karma: The idealist concept that people get what they deserve. People like to tell themselves when all is said and done, life is fair. Teenagers squirming in their desks, like a rocket ready for blast off or  a balloon about to pop, with the king-like teacher on some high and mighty power trip that won’t allow them to use the restroom, tell themselves that that “they’ll get theirs.” When girls scroll through the social-trap of Instagram and find their bae slacking, posting a series of heart emojis all over some girl’s selfie, they must restrain from going on some virtual rampage by convincing themselves that “you reap what you sow.” The universe, the vast compilation of infinite galaxies, planets, with an estimated seven billion people on Earth alone, still convinces people that it looks out for them — individually.

Control. Everyone wants control over their own lives. They tell themselves that, as long as they continuously sacrifice their sleep, sanity, and social life, will reap the rewards of their good deeds. If one does well in school, their life should fall effortlessly at their feet, colleges knocking at their door, high-paying jobs seeking them out, and happiness will come hand in hand with their profound success. The fact stands, though, that life does not get easier after high school, and no amount of preparation can account for its unpredictability. Instead, the emotional roller coaster continues to ricochet a person’s mental state, following them out of adolescence and into the depths of their adult years. Coping skills and emotional numbness encompassing their struggles, life goes on.

Lies take the cold and fragile state of a person’s well being and wraps it in a blanket, keeping it cozy. Unfortunately, deception tends to cover up the fact that the blanket, however warm it may be, laced itself with arsenic.

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